Monday, April 23, 2007

turn the hazards on

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There's a disabled vehicle up ahead.

And that vehicle would be me. (Notice I said a disabled vehicle, not a wide load...) My life. My work. My blog. I've been lukewarm on everything lately. No passion. I think after being so stressed out I hit a proverbial wall. So I'm currently indifferent on the events in my life.

The lack of good chid care has left me in a tizzy every day trying to juggle picking up Amara and still coming across as a good employee. But the constant rush has left me very little time with my family. We haven't seen Great-grandma2Amara for two weeks. Dad2Amara's work and teaching schedule leaves us little time together.

So in pure exhaustion, I'd rather surf the web mindlessly than put an effort towards work. Mom2Amara's boss "resigned" so all the stress that was once on my shoulders this year has lifted. So there's no pressure right now to complete the initiative I was feverishly working on. It will still launch on time (watch out for that announcement coming soon!), but I don't feel compelled to work on it from home after hours.

Which leaves this blog. I really have nothing noteworthy to write about. I'm just randomly ranting in this post. I've hit a brain freeze. It hurts just to think of anything creative for work and for this blog. Not good since that's what I get paid to do.

So forgive me if this self serving post bores you. Saying "I'm sorry" is much easier right now than trying to formulate a more coherent though.
today's good: I got my oil changed, tires rotated, and ate a bag of Cheetos. The afternoon's coming along well. Oh and we got to spend yesterday with Godmother2Amara and Amara's Uncle Pete. Good times.
today's bad: I'm trying to work some connections and get myself some decent seats for this summer's Barenaked Ladies concert. I left the task of purchasing tickets to Dad2Amara and of course, he was late to the game and there's not much left. So keep your fingers crossed. But why is that a bad? Because I just found out that Mika will be in Chicago that same week! Do you think I could swing two concerts in one week?!?!

2 comments :

  1. I know exactly what you mean. I've lost my "passion" for my job and that is a shameful thing to me.

    Hope things get better soon... and I say go for 2 concerts in one week... treat yourself! You deserve it!

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  2. Yeah, sometimes you just have days/weeks/months like that. And there's nothing you can do but ride it out.

    The cliche that life is a roller coaster is out there for a reason. Because things are always changing, we get the ups, downs, and the blahs.

    I'm hovering right above a blah right now, but I don't think it's going to drop down... I hope.

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