Friday, December 4, 2009

rest in peace

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Linda Jimenez
March 1949 - December 2009


My heart aches. But I know Mom is no longer in pain. I know she is in Heaven with her Creator. Mom is surrounded by family and friends that have welcomed her through the pearly gates.

For over a month, I have been blogging here. Yet I haven't posted about my Mom until now, after her death.

There is a reason why I am posting now.

Everyone loved my Mom. And for those people that did not - it was because she spoke her mind. And she spoke loudly. I am my Mother's daughter. You take us for who we are.

Despite all that, Mom was very private. And while literally hundreds of people visited Mom at hospice, there were many more turned away. Mom would not have wanted them all to see her the way she was. Her quality of his life, in terms of physical activity, diminished. Most times, conversations for this talkative, outgoing woman, were nonexistent.

So why post now about the anguish?

Through it all, Mom wanted to be an example for others.

This oncology nurse would want other brain tumor patients to be knowledgeable about what happens. And this God fearing woman would want her friends to know that even at the end, her faith in God comforted her.

The journey was long and hard fought. And I know my Dad, sister and I would not have made it through without the support of our family and friends.

It is with deep gratitude I look back over the last 6 years of my Mom's journey. And now I brace myself for the future. I am eternally grateful to you for your love and support.

And to all of you, I say as my Mom said to us just a few short weeks back,
"thank you is not enough. So I will say, I love you all."


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in my memory of my Mom

12 comments :

  1. I am here for you and your family. She IS in a better place. She is PERFECT. She is now your guardian angel and has a special place set aside for all of her family members still on earth. I love you Monina. I really do. xo

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  2. I am profoundly sorry for your loss. I never met your Mom but you certainly sound like her daughter! She must have been so proud of you. Thank you for sharing a part of your journey. Remember that love is forever. I wish you and your family peace. Tracy (MsSilpada)

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  3. My heart goes out to you all. I'm so sorry - she sounded like such a brave and beautiful woman. I know she is looking down at you and smiling. Hugs.

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  4. Your writing is powerful, sturdy and crisp, polished with the grit of raw emotion. It speaks the profound truth of your mother, of you as a mother and a daughter, of the strong and sometimes mysterious bonds that women share. I am humbled. She taught you well Monina. You wrote a monument to her memory. And from now on your life will honor her as well. Pull your family and friends close. Grieve openly and fully. The path ahead will be hard. But know that many have walked it before you. There is solace ahead, happy memories of better times.

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  5. I'm so sorry for your loss. It has to be so difficult for you. It sounds like she was an amazing person - that she wanted to be an example to others is admirable and remarkable. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

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  6. My heart goes out to you and your family. I am sorry for your loss. Your mom sounded like a brave, strong, and wonderful woman. I wish you and your family peace.

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  7. Mo, this is so beautifully written. What a wonderful tribute to your mother. Your love and admiration for her is palpable.

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  8. I am so sorry for your loss. You have paid your mom a beautiful tribute - and everything you have ever written conveyed your love for each other. xoxo

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  9. Just a few visit to your blog but still wanted to send my condolences. It is hard, I don't know how hard, said a prayer for your family.

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  10. I'm so sorry for your loss. Cancer is a terrible disease, but it sounds like it wasn't able to dampen your Mom's spirit. I'm sure she's watching now with pride. I'm praying for you.

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  11. So, so, so very sorry for your loss, but am rejoycing with you that she IS in a better place. (((HUGS)))

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