Friday, October 28, 2011

forever

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Nothing lasts forever.

Years ago, I remember having everything at my fingertips. All was right with the world. I was so smitten, I was literally hugging trees. I thought all sorts of things would last forever.

Today, I stress out thinking about how short life is. After my Mom passed, life seemed even more precious. But this delicate life became so hectic. I was suffocating. Yet it was strangely exhilarating. My head spun. I couldn't see straight.

I began to reevaluate life. In it's most basic state, I saw it drifting in a different direction. But I know some see it much more dramatic and unraveling. Yet the road on which we set, I don't think I can come back.

No, I don't want to be alone. But the house stopped feeling like a home. And I am reminded of past broken promises and don't know if I can accept more of the same. I have to be willing to let go of this life we planned.

I have this beautiful gift. And she is as wonderful as I could have ever dreamed. But beyond her, being apart is best. I know it.

At some point, you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life.

This isn't how I thought it would end.

Nothing lasts forever.

4 comments :

  1. I have come to admire your strength. First through your mother's passing and now this. I've wondered what you've been struggling with and am happy that you are now on a path back to happiness. Much love.

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  2. Isn't it amazing how much life can change? And sometimes those changes can be very, very difficult. I'm sorry to hear you are going through this but I do hope it leads you to a happier place. Sending big hugs.

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  3. I, too, admire you because I know it's really tough right now. But I also know you are finding your stride and searching for your own happiness. Much love you on your journey.

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  4. I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate your kind words of support. It has been a much more difficult journey than I ever had expected. I often feel I have failed in shielding my daughter from all this pain, but I continue to protect as best I can from all of this heartache. That's all I can do. But with the love of my family behind me and the support of friends like you, I know I will get through this.

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