first day out of hell

I went M.I.A. again, didn't I?

And I can tell you I wasn't running or at spin class. [pout]

There was a lot of going on with Family2Amara.

But we were simply not prepared for what happened Friday.

I was at work when I got a call from Dad2Amara.

He hasn't been feeling well and reluctantly went to the doctor's. The next thing we know, he's being sent to the hospital.

It's very unsettling to be following directly behind an ambulance that's transporting your husband.

Fortunately I shipped Amara to Grandma2Amara's house the day before because Dad2Amara was in no shape to take care of her. Then Amara already had plans to hang with Aunt2Amara on Saturday. So we were able to keep the news from her for a few days.

But I was a wreck. The doctors didn't know with what they were dealing. And the uncertainty was killing me.

I spent two days in a house with a dog and a fish. No 6-year-old girl dancing up and down the stairs. No husband putting away dishes in the kitchen.

It was quiet.

It was unnerving.

We had gotten some news on Lola2Amara's cancer too so my head already hurt from the loop-de-loops it was doing.

And then all this happened.

So more questions filled my head.

Would Dad2Amara be home for the first day of school?

Would Dad2Amara need surgery?

Who was going to take the garbage out to the curb?

And who was going to take my hand and tell me everything is going to be alright?

And that's when I realized just how much I truly love my husband and just how much I lean on him.

The good news is Dad2Amara is now home, after three very long days.

And the even better news is that despite his illness and all the other crap that happened last week, today marks a new week.

And I know it'll be better. It just has to be.


  1. I am sorry to hear that Dad2Amara is not feeling well, but glad he is home. Hang in there, you will make it through.

  2. Oh how scary. That is a very unsettling feeling. I'm glad he's home and recovering nicely. Take care of yourself too. Hugs!

  3. So glad he's feeling better and home. It was so good to talk to you even for a few minutes the other day. Glad I could make you laugh.

  4. Thats freaky! Did they figure out what was making him sick??? I'm glad your family made it through that ordeal okay!


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